Maybe this is personal but i am wondering if any people feel either the chosen one or the skapegoat of the family i ve been reading on the net and its more common than you think. I ve always felt a failure when i was doing well my brother always put me down. He could do no wrong and it was handy having a small brother to blame for everything or order about. Maybe iam lashing out but i laid low this weekend as he was up and mum was obvs going ro wait on him hand and foot. His career and life has gone into orbit hes very succesful and i guess i do feel proud but i have struggled and always been mainly by mum led to feel like a complete failure ive worked hard built my own house out of stone tried to run an ailing family business but sumhow its like mum wanted me to fail. As a kid i got whooping cough it nearly killed me i had 6 months off primary school a mate said maybe thats what put you behind as a kid for a bit. I also struggled terrible with maths only to find at the last year at junior that i had bad eyesight and coyldnt see the decimal point. I gave up college well i passed my course and was offered a degree course but didnt go on. My mum let me know about that for years. Sometimes if brothers done something wrong i get up to status of golden boy which is nice but is short lived. My brother as a kid crashed mums car with me in he blamed me to which i got a bollocking then he fessed up then it was well i hope your all ok etc no bollocking for him. I guess things are a bit crap iam looking for blame. Its just hard when bros doing so well and i arnt but its weird if you do well your given more if you struggle your a loser.