Months ago, I wrote about how shit of a time I was having at university, and I'm very sorry to say that hasn't changed.
On Thursday I was talking to my partner about returning home to Belfast to study instead. It was an idea that really made me happy.
I rang the student loan/grant company yesterday enquiring about whether or not I would have to pay back the money I'd borrowed this year and luckily they said I didn't. Afterwards, I rang Queens University and the woman told me to email admissions with details of my GCSE's and BTEC qualifications and whether or not I plan to complete first year at UWS, so I did that today.
What I also did today was research changing universities and it really scared the fuck out of me. I read things like "if you change uni's, it could have an impact on your finances; you may get paid less, you may not get paid at all or you will have to pay some of the money back that you have borrowed already".
I'm starting to think "what's the point in trying to change university?" and that "it's too much hassle", but I am miserable here in Ayr and I don't know what to do. I just want to cry right now.